Moments of Truth

There are many moments of truth in our lives. Sometimes we avoid facing the truth, sometimes we confront the truth and its consequences. Sometimes we just don't give a damn with the truth because no matter how we tried to handle the situation or no matter how we tried to change, the truth remained and static.

I've had many of those so-called moments of truth. I've been trying to hold on to something that is beyond my reach. I've tried my very best, 101% effort and determination because I thought "this is it, this is the ultimate goal in my pathetic life.. finally i found the reason not to live alone" But the truth is, as hard it is to swallow (and I knew it), I ignore the facts that I don't belong there, where I thought I'd supposed to be.

There were times when we knew, the road ahead is bumpy and somehow at the very end of the road, the path splits. We simply decided not to listen to our guts because we hoped that somewhere along the way, things would've changed and we will not be wondering the what-ifs. What if I decided to stop and re-evaluate the situation? What if I stayed and played along? What if I walked away? Those were the questions we asked ourselves when the truth hits us in the face, hard.

I've made decisions which I'm not proud of. I've made decisions I later regret. Yet sometimes I'm glad I made those decisions. I don't consider myself learned from my mistakes. I kept doing the same mistake over and over again because I was hoping that somehow, someday this mistake will no longer be a mistake. It will be the right thing to do. And I'm still waiting for the right thing to happen.

Which eventually become the moment of truth for me - that I finally gave up making those mistakes.

I think this is it - this is the moment of truth for me. This is my turning point. Let me let you go.

Worthy lesson - the truth is hard, but it's better.